Thursday, September 10, 2009

Sad Times

I know it's been a long time since I posted. Probably the longest hiatus ever. I probably wouldn't be posting yet, except I got a PM at Stitcher's Guild that told me that my blog had a password on it now and she couldn't read it. I had put no password on anything, so I looked, and there's some kind of a sign-in thing from a group I know nothing about called "thick data". I have no idea how it got there, and I just closed that box and everything went on as normal, so I hope that's how it works for you.

I have never talked about much here except sewing and textile subjects, as well as a little on food, flowers, etc. I thought that was plenty, and I just didn't want to get into personal stuff. But now is the time, I think.

Pearle has been having health problems for some time, and we came home from the hospital just about 2 weeks ago, and he's on hospice now. I'm spending all my time with him, as you might expect. We're still working out the routine, and I'm hoping I'll eventually get some free hours here and there, but it's hard to tell. Things change suddenly.

I'm doing a little knitting on things I already had going, but I just don't seem to have the concentration necessary to plan anything new. Luckily it's going to take me a while to finish Alex's cabled sweater, and the lace hemp shell I'm doing. Then we'll see. Embroidery seems to have an attraction suddenly, but as I said, I'm not getting any planning done.

I have to put in a plug for the hospice program. They are simply wonderful, and I can't imagine how we would be getting on without them. It would be pretty tragic.

122 comments:

Vicki W said...

You are right, Hospice is one of the most valuable organizations around. I've never heard a bead thing about them and almost everyone has had some experience with them at one time or another. I am glad Pearle is home and that you are able to spend so much time with him.

Anonymous said...

Oh, Liana, I'm sorry. I'll be thinking of you.
Martha

Janet said...

I am sorry for your trouble. You and Pearle are in my prayers!

Nancy (nanflan) said...

I'm so sorry, Liana.

My father experienced hospice care and it was a Godsend for our family. I cannot say enough good things about them.

Recently my DF's family also had hospice care for his mother. Also a good thing, and a positive experience.

fabricfan said...

Oh Liana, I often think of you and Pearle. I will keep you both in my prayers.

Rhoto said...

Oh Liana, I am so very sorry to hear your news. I encourage you to continue taking care of Liana, too.
Soft hugs,
Rhonda in Montreal (PR)
and Palliative Volunteer

Summerset said...

Oh, Liana, I am sorry to hear this! We've never had a bad experience with hospice, either, they are simply wonderful, caring people who go beyond to make everyone as comfortable as possible.

Do not worry about not getting any projects worked on or let alone done. Spend your precious time concentrating on Pearle and yourself.

I'll be thinking of and praying for you both.

Margy said...

I'm so very sorry, Liana...I know you will cherish this time with Pearle. I have been on both the giving and the receiving end of hospice and know what a blessing their help can be.

I'll be holding both of you in my thoughts...

Amy said...

Please know that you both are in my thoughts and prayers.

Birgitte said...

I am so sorry, Liana.

McVal said...

I'm so sorry! You all are in my prayers.

Gigi said...

I am so sorry, Liana. My thoughts are with you.

Kathleen C. said...

Oh, I am so sorry to hear this. All my best wishes to you and Pearle. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Sigrid said...

This is very sad news, I am very sorry for you. My thoughts are with you.

Shannon said...

I will be keeping you and Pearle in my thoughts.

Jenni said...

I am sorry to hear about Pearle and I will be thinking of you both.

Rachel said...

I am so sorry. I will be praying for the both of you.

BeeBee said...

I'm sorry, Liana. I'll be thinking of you and your family. Try to find some time for yourself. You both need that.
(And I got the same log-in thingy. Clicked cancel and it was gone, too)

Susan said...

i'm so sorry Liana... I will be thinking and praying for you both
sue v

willowsmum said...

I will be thinking of you both.....
Sandra

Vicki said...

Liana, that is such sad news. It is good that Pearle is home and you can spend this time with him. Will keep both of you in my prayers.

gwensews said...

I'm sorry you have to go through such trying times. There is nothing anyone can say or do to take the pain away. Hospice is wonderful, and very helpful and supportive not only to the patient, but family as well. Take care of yourself, and let people help you.

BetsyV said...

I m so sorry to read this news, Liana. I was vaguely aware that Pearle was not well, but this is sad news, indeed.

Remember to take care of yourself, too. Sending a hug to you and to Pearle,

Melissa said...

I'm sorry Liana, my thoughts are with your right now. Try to take good care of yourself.

Teddylyn said...

I am a regular lurker, Liana, but wanted to send a cyber hug. My dad is also on hospice care and declining rapidly. Try to do some things that bring you pleasure while also having time with your beloved. I know it can't be easy.

Lynda in LV

Leslie in Austin said...

My heart is with you, Liana.

SewingLibrarian said...

Oh, Liana, I am so sorry to hear this. Please know that I will be thinking of you both and praying for you. May your days together be sweet and tender.
Linda

Mary Beth said...

I'm glad Perle is home with you now, Liana. I am sad along with you and hope that a routine settles in soon. Wishing you all the strength in the world.

kiltsnquilts said...

I am also a regular lurker but just wanted to say that I am thinking of you both at this difficult time. You are right not to try to plan anything, and if you need something to do with your hands (and sometimes as a small distraction) then embroidery or knitting is perfect.

BTW I have always had the 'thickdata' box come up when visiting your blog, I just click on cancel and it is fine.

Claire S. said...

I;m so sorry to hear this news Liana. You and Pearle will be in my prayers.

Jane said...

I am sorry. There is a power and a grace in this time. Sending loving energy and thoughts your way.
-Jane

JoanneM said...

I wish strength for you both.

Sherril said...

I can imagine planning the next hour must be difficult at times, don't worry about planning your projects. Being with Pearle is your project right now. I'm so sorry you both are going through this. Just want you to know you'll be in my thoughts as you and Pearle go through this crisis.

Kaylene said...

Liana, you are such a wonderful giving person. I wish only the best for you and Pearle at this time. You are both in my heart and prayers. Kaylene

Towanda said...

My thoughts are with both of you. Sending you strength and prayers.

Lori said...

Faithful reader of your blog, sending you thoughts and prayers during this time.

Tina said...

Liana, thanks for sharing your sad news. We miss you but know that you have to be elsewhere for the time being. Thinking of you.

Tina

susan said...

Liana, My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Sally said...

Liana, my thoughts and prayers are with you also. I hope God gives you courage and comfort. I'm hoping for the same as I fear a similar circumstance will be coming my way shortly. I will be praying for your and your family. Sally

Lisette M said...

I will keep you in my thoughts. My father was in Hospice care and there aren't enough good words to describe the excellent care he received. During his time there my mom rediscovered crocheting which she had learned from her grandmother and brought her lots of comfort.

Tracy said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Miaaa said...

I will be thinking of you both..... from the over side of the ocean.

Lindsay T said...

Thinking of you.

cidell said...

I'm sorry Liana. You've really inspired me this summer to start sewing my own underthings. I hope that your routine settles in soon and you find some peace.

The login thing popped up for me too in Google Reader. Not sure what that means.

sdBev said...

Liana

Enjoy this precious time with Pearle. I'll keep you in my prayers.

PS this is the first time in a long time I haven't gotten that box. Maybe it is clearing off?

Carrie said...

Another long-time lurker, here. I'm holding you and Pearle in my prayers.

Rhoto said...

Another day & another soft hug sent your way, Liana...
Rhonda in Montreal (PR)

Donna W said...

My thoughts are with you both. Take care of yourself. Hugs to you from me.
Donna Wicks
Edmonton, Alberta

Sew Passionista said...

God bless both of you at this special time.Having hobbies to occupy your hands is probably a very good thing.Take care. Diana

kbenco said...

I am sorry that you are in the midst of hard times. Hugs to you.

Linda said...

Yes, I love reading your blog.
And I have said before I wish I lived by you. I know how hard this
this is as I have gone though what
you are going though. Mine prayers and thoughts go out to you and your family

Linda

Anonymous said...

You have been my inspiration since I began sewing again after 25 years. I found your blog and have followed you. My heart breaks for you, know that you have many cyberspace friends that think of you often and keep you and yours in our prayers.

Connie said...

I am so sorry to hear your sad news, but I am glad you have the help of hospice. They helped so much when my mother was at the end of her life. Please take care of yourself and make use of all that hospice offers to help you both.

Debbie Cook said...

I'm so sorry to hear this news. I was just thinking about you both today when I saw your photo in Threads as I was thumbing through it. Best wishes and prayers for Pearle and for you.

Sue said...

Look after yourself as well as Pearle,
Sue

Melodye said...

Liana, I am so sorry. Praying for strength ad comfort in the coming days.

Mardel said...

You are in my thoughts constantly. Hugs.

Betboyd said...

Liana, so sorry to hear this..My thoughts and prayers will be with you. And yes hospice is really a great thing.

Glenda said...

My heart goes out to you. I wish you strength and courage.

Ann's Fashion Studio said...

Liana my thoughts are with you and Pearle. Take Care. Ann

a little sewing on the side said...

Liana, my thoughts are with you and Pearle at this very difficult time. *hugs*

Maggie said...

I am so sorry to hear this news. I always worry when daily bloggers aren't heard from for a while. My thoughts and prayers are with you ar this difficult time. You always spoke so fondly of Pearle in your posts.

JenSA said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you. I've only heard good things about Hospice so I trust you're both in good hands.

Anonymous said...

Dear Liana,
I am a lurker from the early days of PR, and have avidly followed you as an inspriration.
Five years ago, I was in the same situation as you are now. I am sending thoughts and prayers for Pearle and you, and thanks for Hospice, as well.
Paula

Sewsy said...

Dear Liana, I'm so sorry to read about Pearle. I am keeping you both in my prayers. God Bless You Both.

Sewsy

Marilyn's Rags said...

I'm mostly a lurker on Stitcher's Guild too, but wanted to add that I'm sorry to hear about Pearle's health. Take care of yourself too.

Carla said...

Liana, I'm so sorry to hear what you and Pearle are going through. My thoughts and prayers are with you in this difficult time. Carla

Waste Not Farm said...

Liana, we are remembering you and Pearle in our prayers. Jeanne

PattiB said...

Liana, I can only echo what everyone else has said -- I am so sorry. I hope it is some small comfort that you have so much support from your cyberspace sewing friends. Do take care of yourself too. My thoughts are with you both.

DragonLady said...

Wow. I've spent ten minutes sitting here staring, trying to think what to say. And all that comes to mind is "wow."

Please don't hesitate to talk about this. We at Stitcher's Guild are happy to listen to you; to offer a virtual hand to hold through this, and to provide whatever comfort we are able. You deserve all the time and attention you need and can get, and I hope you know that.

You will both be in my thoughts. Please IM me if you need to chat, anytime.

~DragonLady

joan71 said...

Liana, treasure these last days with Pearle. I thank God for hospice and the loving staff and volunteers. I do hope Pearle is not physically suffering. May God give each of you His peace.
Joan

Rose said...

Liana, I mostly read your blog and I enjoy reading about your sewing/fiber projects. My thoughts are with you and your family during this difficult time. Please take care.

Rose in SV

Stash said...

Liana,

I am so sorry about your news. Thank heavens for the hospice people. You and Pearle are in my heart and I am sending as much love and comfort as I can from here.

Stash

chataigne said...

Liana, I am so sorry to learn about this. i wish you strength, comfort, and peace.

Elona

Ann Rowley said...

Liana, I'm so sorry to hear this news.
I join all your other cyber friends in sending you love at this time.

My thoughts and prayers are with you both.

Ann

Gorgeous Things said...

Oh Liana, I'm so sorry to hear that. I will keep you both in my thoughts.

Digs said...

It must've been difficult for you to reveal your private life on the blog. I too offer you words of strength and thoughts of moral support. On the practical side, it's always easier to cope what life throws at us when one is well rested, so make sure you get plenty of sleep and nutrition. Best regards.

RuthieK said...

Lian, my thoughts and prayers are with you at this difficult time. Regards RuthieK

Kathleen Fasanella said...

I'm so sorry Liana, my thoughts are with you both.

Sheila said...
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Sheila said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Fabricarts said...

Thanks for letting us know. I'm so glad you and Pearle have the support of hospice. I'm confident you are making great choices about what to set aside for the time being, remembering to take care of yourself, and feeling the fullness of each moment. Blessings to you and Pearle and prayers for God's grace and peace filling your hearts and minds.
Miriam

Anonymous said...

Liana, my heart is so touched by the events you and Pearle are facing at this time. I was somewhat aware that he had been ill for some time, but not to this extent. You are such a light among us, that it saddens me for your beautiful loved one is seriously ill. But know that all of our love and respect follow you and Pearle at this time of goodbys. May we somehow give you some strength during this time, for we all love you deeply.

Karen aka Karendee

Barbara said...

Liana you have given so generously of yourself to all of us. Let's hope that somehow we can send some of that back to you to help support and carry you through these difficult times. Please remember you are not as alone as you may sometimes feel. We are here for you.

Carolyn's Sewing Room said...

Liana, you and Pearle are in my prayers. I was a hospice social worker for many years, and met some wonderful, brave people. Celebrate each good moment.
Carolyn from Stitcher's Guild

Lisa Laree said...

I'm behind on my blog reading... I just saw your post. I can't say anything any better than anyone else has...but I wanted you to know I'll be holding you in my heart to the Father as well as many others, with prayers for strength and grace and peace.

Melody said...

Liana, I'm so sorry. You both are in my thoughts and prayers.

LauraM said...

Liana, I am so sorry to hear this news. You are both in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

Liana,I'm very sorry,my heart goes out to you.You and Pearle are in my prayers.

Pina

ejvc said...

Hugs from an internet friend. I am very sorry to hear this news, and wish that your remaining time together may be peaceful and beautiful.

Elizabeth

Anonymous said...

Lianna, I'm so sorry to hear your news, and I will keep you and Pearle in my prayers and thoughts.

Yes, hospice is wonderful.

lella

CyberGirly said...

I just stumbled across your blog and read this post. Thinking and praying for you and Pearle x

suezeyque said...

Liana,
I am so sorry, both you and Pearle are in my thoughts and prayers. Suzanne

Anonymous said...

I am so very sorry. My thoughts and prayers go out to you both. I can't imagine what you are going through but please know that you are deeply cared about amoung your cyber friends.
Hugs, Susan (fabricluver)

Sherry said...

Liana, I'm so sorry to hear your news. I'm mostly a lurker and was concerned that you weren't posting. Hospice was a godsend for our family, too. You and your dear husband will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Sherry in Little Rock

Anonymous said...

Sorry to hear this news. I too am a lurker and have enjoyed learning from your sewing experiences. You and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers.
Kathy

Remnant said...

I'm glad you have shared your burden with us, your online sewing family. You are so well loved - it's no wonder - your love and concern for others shines through daily!

You will be in my prayers.

Pamela said...

Liana
Just yesterday I was thanking you for sharing your shoe covering info.

I am so sorry. My thoughts are with you. Hospice is a wonderful organization.

PamelaMI

Anonymous said...

My heart breaks for you Liana, please continue to take good care of your dear hubby (forsaking the needles) and of yourself too. You will be in my thoughts.

Peggy L said...

Liana- my thoughts and prayers are with you and Pearle. Hospice is truly a blessings.

Anonymous said...

Liana

I am so very sorry that you're going through a time of troubles. I'll keep you and Perle in my thoughts and send my warmest best wishes and wish good luck.
ruth

Nancy K said...

I wondered why you hadn't posted lately and I am so sorry to hear the reason. My thoughts are with you both.

alethia said...

My prayers are with you

Nancy JC said...

Liana, my thoughts and prayers are with you. I have followed your blog since Day 1...you were always special to me since I had lost my sister to Leukemia in not far from you. I felt you were giving me a little piece of what she was. Here's a tender, virtual hug. You'll be in my thoughts daily.

Lynn said...

I'm so sorry. I know wishing or having things played out differently would be better than living them, but I pray that things go the way you both have talked out or thought out. Sweetly.

Gail said...

Liana, I lost my dear husband only two short months ago, and can personally attest to the value of palliative care. I know you're finding the inner strength to cherish every moment with Pearle. Please know it's just as important to take care of yourself during this time. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Anonymous said...

Dear Lianna,

I'm glad hospice is a comfort to you. I lost my mother last week, and making the decision to enter hospice helped her very much to be at peace, and to say her goodbyes. It's a very sad time, but a very precious one. You and your family will be in my prayers.

Martina

Bonnie said...

Sending prayers for you and your DH Bonnie

patsijean said...

Oh, Liana, I am so sorry Pearle is ill. I do hope that his health improves and you can stop worrying so much. Sending good wishes your way.

karin said...

Liana
I have really nothing to say that haven´t been said already. You are both in my thoughts

Rebecka said...

Liana,
I'll be thinking of you and Pearle. My prayers are with you both. So sorry to hear the news.

Nancy W. said...

Liana - I'm so sorry to hear your sad news. We had hospice with my dad last year and I wouldn't give that up for anything. You will be in my prayers.

BTW, I also got the thick data message today for the first time - never got it before.

Rhoto said...

Another day & another soft hug sent your way, Liana...
Rhonda in Montreal (PR)

DanainDFW said...

I'm so sorry to hear your sad news. Prayers for your husband, your family, and the doctors helping.

austin said...

You and Pearle are in my prayers.

Linda said...

My thoughts and prayers go out to you. I know of others who have dealt with Hopsice and I know they benefitted from it tremendouwly.

Uta said...

Liana, my thoughts and prayers are with you and Pearle. I wish you lots of strength, and supportive friends and family.

becki-c said...

I hope that you have found a support system that you have here.
We love to enjoy your happiness and your successes, and we wish that we could do more to reach out to you.

Faye Lewis said...

I'm so sorry to hear this. Will be keeping you and yours in my prayers.

Digs said...

My sincerest condolences on Pearle's passing, Liana. I know you have the entire sewing community rallying behind you, and offering moral support. Hugs.

paco peralta said...

Liana .- I was away from his blog, and I did not echo the news. I'm really sorry. I hope you're well.

Un abrazo, Paco

kanishk said...

I am sorry for your trouble. You and Pearle are in my prayers!

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